Essense

The essential sense of self.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

March Art Show


As much as I enjoy this medium, I am engaged in painting intently right now. The above painting, "Honu" which is turtle in Hawaiian, is the signature piece for my first art show. I will be featured at Lorraine Beelge's Studio on Commerical Street on March third. She has given me a wonderful opportunity to experience this public exposure and invite all of my friends. I call it: Art Show 101. Needless to say, color and shape dominate my thoughts these days.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Illusion of division


This country of my birth currently registers sounds of self-destruction. Voices clamor for distinction by claiming laws don't apply to the executive branch - up to and including the timely reporting of a firearm accident that landed a victim in the hospital. Senators and congress people vote to adhere to party lines rather than the rule of law or personal ethics. Public discussions wallow in personal attacks rather than issue exploration. Have we forgotten how to talk? Did we ever know how?

In my world, a public sea change occured sometime in the eighties. Talk radio hosts degraded and demeaned public officials they did not admire or support. Disrespect was also heaped upon callers they did not agree with. Groups of people were lumped together and attacked, mocked and denounced. Animosity became publically acceptable. Somehow, it was no longer respectable to agree to disagree or even listen to another's point of view. Callers were shouted down. I didn't spend a lot of time with the radio programs; I listened wondering where they came from and how long they would last. Amazingly, their popularity soared and listeners would call in to be ridiculed or to try to shout louder than the host. It was outrageous radio. Everybody could be outraged - whether you agreed with the host or not.

This attitude and approach swept to new levels during the nineties and the Clinton presidency. No longer was the office of the president given respect; the man was attacked. Unfortunately, by lying to the public about his intimate relations with an intern, he left himself wide open, but the feeding frenzy from all fronts was unprecedented. In truth, nothing was given respect except for the ideas, flagrantly assumed to be held by everyone, of the host. From a financial and foreign policy perspective, our country was more stable than it had been in years, yet those topics lay fallow beneath the soil. Instead, outrage swamped the news broadcasts, television talk shows, and newspapers. A habit of outrage gleefully washed over all public discourse.

I did note the partisan sway; the "us versus them" mentality became the order of the day. Winning at all costs became celebrated. Michiavelli would be proud: the ends justified the means. Yet, who or what wins? What is our common goal? Do we have one? And even though one party holds all of the power today, what of tomorrow? Will the other party adopt the same behavior to win? Can a country survive with outrage as its source of sustenance?

Today, I suspect we have reached a climax socially and politically. We are viewing all of the disparities that were hidden in the past. That is, as a country of social and racial diversity, hatred, fear, elitism, disgust, and even outrage have long festered between groups of people all across this land. One of the most outstanding qualities about the United States of America is our diversity, and we are all-too-obviously still trying to figure out how to live within it. It lies in the swamped soil of Social Security, Medicare, health care, living wages, foreign policy, and individual privacy. Are we willing to trust and support one another in the journey of life, or do we seek to undercut, betray, and cheat others in order to produce gain for our side (political party, state, racial group, gender, age group, economic level, international posture, etc.)? If we will support one another - by how much?

In other words, this public display of outrageous behavior, media spin, constitutional abuse, and flagrant financial misappropriation is the apex of what has come before. These were hidden behaviors once allowed only behind the closed doors of the president, congress and the senate until they swelled to epic proportions for all to see. The mockery once secretly held within the confines of families, church services, union meetings, special interests, or political caucases reigns the land. We now see the worst of what we are. What do we want to be?

Ultimately, outrage can produce a healthy outcome. Not outrage at people, for that produces violence. Nor outrage at institutions for they morph into something different but the same (case in point: congress and campaign finance laws). Outrage at outrage. By recognizing the outrage, the lies, the manipulations, and instead honoring our own perceptions, we can demand respect. Of course, we must give respect as well and not get caught in the ready-made trap of reaction. Once we fall into outrage we lose our sense of individuality and awareness. Instead, listen. Feel the energy being directed at you; sense the weight of the anchor designed to drown you in the swamp.

As a nation of individuals the time has come to honor ourselves. We can no longer abide political representatives who lie, steal, and cheat. If that is our national definition of politician, it is time to change the framework. We can no longer stay connected to groups who seek to harm others or take away their rights, for when we do, we dishonor ourselves. When respect is not given, we must acknowledge our personal outrage, and turn away. To continue to follow the party line, or the church line, or the family line when we know it is neither honorable nor truthful, we betray the Essense of our being. As individuals, we must turn away in peaceful protest. We are testing ourselves, like no nation before us, one citizen at a time.

We are not a nation of public groups. We are not a nation of political affiliations, red or blue states, conservative or liberal. No public group stands by your bed when you die. No amount of political prestige or power wipes your brow when pain wracks your body with illness. Righteousness and false pride evaporate like a morning mist when confronted with simple inner clarity. We are a nation of individuals. We are born alone, and we die alone. What we do individually, between those literal, inexplicable points, creates a nation. As we honor what we know to be right and just, the outrage will ebb. We are unmasking the illusions of dishonor, denigration, and despair fostered by outrage. We can not afford it - literally as well as figuratively. In the aftermath, like the flooding of a river in a broad valley, the soil will be more fertile than ever. We will finally grow a nation based upon our founding fathers' ideals: respect, integrity, honesty, and trust.

It begins with me and you, not them.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Lone Trees


Sometimes lone trees do survive even under the harshest of conditions. A few branches may no longer carry sap, and the trunk may be bent by battering winds, but the tree lives. Today, a well spoken writer, Glenn Greenwald, posted a response to personal attacks against him and "liberals" (don't assume you understand the definition until you read the post) in general. It is not a new theme on the Internet, but rarely is the idea explored with such clear insight and care.

The name calling is useless; it reveals nothing about policy ideas or basic assumptions about what government is or worse, what the role of an individual is in our society. The bedrock of our United States' uniqueness is the power, respect, and dignity of the individual. When party lines are demanded or commanded, when people forsake their personal ideas for alignment with a group, or person (no matter how fleetingly powerful), we have stepped back into the dark ages. We are better than this, and we know it. Whatever "side" one is on, we are still citizens of the same country. Thus, when name calling, innuendo, or mocking highlight an issue or conversation, it is time to turn the dial, write a letter, or simply recognize that someone is trying to play on our weaknesses and not our strengths. At some point, we are going to have to fix the current mess of contention and deceit, or we will face another civil war. Ideas are to be explored, evaluated and measured based on one's perspective of the world and life.

A lone tree totally exposed has much less chance of getting swept up in a forest fire. We are in this together, but the only way we create positive change is through individual dignity and determination like that of Glenn Greenwald today.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Framed in Respect



After reading a post this morning by Al Franken, I learned a bit about something bandied around last week: the Wellstone funeral. It was spoken of with great disdain and vehemence, as if something truly outrageous had occurred and was being replicated at Coretta Scott King's funeral. First, I watched clips last week from the funeral and learned who spoke and something of what they said, but I believed the event was created to honor the woman and the role she held in many people's lives. That is what we do with funerals. But other vicious voices in our midst claimed it was all intended to embarass our President. Now Al explains that what he experienced at the Wellstone funeral was not reported. How many people today are listening to partisan posturing rather than observing the event themselves and drawing their own conclusions?

Worse, when did we decide that funerals, a place of mourning, compassion, and commraderie, could be debased publically? If you have experienced loss through death, you know the drill: shock, dismay (even when you can see it coming), and extreme, heart-healing gratitude for all of the friendly overtures and kindness. Mrs. King's funeral was analyzed and commented upon like a political campaign. Yes, it was televised, but no one was running for office. Someone who had a major impact on civil liberties and individual freedoms died after a long, generous career which our president chose to honor. People and speakers did not attend to honor him; they came to celebrate the life of someone they loved or admired.

Our disrespect for one another shines all too brightly when the media takes the liberty of attacking a ritual of death. The brittle voices of our time crackle with condension and arrogance. If they don't have something decent to say about the deceased, they should not be speaking. We need respect for one another - in death and in life - no matter who shows up at our funeral.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Tree of Life



After getting behind the filibuster against Alito last weekend, I listened to various voices express disgust, dismay, and outrage. The good news is that many more people are paying attention to the acts of our federal administration and recognizing that they reflect us. That is, they take and spend our money and represent, on a global and national level, attitudes associated with United States' citizens - whether or not the majority support said acts. What happens to the federal court isn't nearly as important as what happens in people's hearts and minds.

Throughout history, a major chasm separated what the people knew and actions taken by various administrations. Tidbits of news danced from the inner pages of one newspaper or another, but rarely did true offenses become front-page fact. For instance, there are people in power today that were charged and convicted for crimes against the country during the Iran/Contra debacle. Their previous offenses are not mentioned when being quoted today - as if they deserve the public trust. Fool me once, it is your fault; fool me twice, it is mine. In the past, we had to rely upon the traditional media to inform us. Now we have one another.

At this point in our history, the powerful arrogantly reveal true disdain and disrespect for the populace. Political publicity spins contradict reality and when challenged, attack the patriotism of the questioner. It is a method of communication honed and refined for over a dozen years - although lying, cheating, and stealing have always existed in the public and private sector. But like all acts in life, they reap what they sow. Negativity does not last. From this chaos and oppression, we will catalyze change to take this country on its true path of individual liberty and freedom. We are better than this - and we know it.

The Tree of Life painting represents our individual uniqueness and inherent power. The best of us, the radiance of our being, carries true power and brilliance. With honesty, we shine. With integrity we stabilize. With responsibility we create a forest of protection. Our commonality is not in opposition to our individuality; it is dependent upon it.